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Mother, daughter bonding verses abandonment- Trust vs Mistrust
As a baby my grandmother was the one I remember, I loved living on a farm and feeding the chickens, pigs and rabbits. I've always known love in my family, growing up in a christian home among all my younger aunts and uncles. It wasnt until later that the absence of my mom became an issue. I dont remember alot during those years and of course being the active child I preoccupied with play time and not adult sacrifes as a single parent. -
Being popular in school came with sacrifices-Identity vs Role confusion
Moving out of a small village and going to a public school was a drastic change for a young girl to make without knowing what to expect. I was lucky at the time in a new school making new friends from a white culture. I loved being popular in school, it was fun, fun, fun..the school activities and dances were my favorite. I seen noticed the cruelty in the classroom and at lunch towards the native kids in class, I kept quite and avoided the cunfusion and anger inside that seemed to grow everday. -
Loving someone that doesnt love me back or being alone- Intimacy vs isolation
In highschool I have had several crushes but was usually too shy to step outside the box and be social. So I have had many secrets kept to myself going through highschool and some adulthood. I've also experienced recently that the love I felt towards another was not returned. I chose to settle for less and accept my arrangement. Growing pains turned to knowledge of what not to do in my journey of love. I know now I am loveable and liked by many and I derserve to live life and be loved. -
Being in school after parenthood-Generativity vs Stagnation
I often asked myself can I achieve greater then what I have now as far as parenting?? Learning the basics of going back to college after kids have grown up and moved on their own. So much self doubt about not being able to succeed. Can I finish, am I smart enough? I've learned that there are so many resources to help people in the world to achieve their dreams in the work place, school, home . School has opened doors for me and my family and also has instilled in me to want to help others also.
