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Development
The age of 12 was miserable! I started hitting reality check. I relized that I was developing mentally and, physically. I knew that I wasn't going to have mommy and daddy forever. I also knew that, they were going to turn old. I didn't know what to do! This is where my life welcomed depression. -
Miserable heartbreak
This was the terrible choice that I have chosen that destroyed me completely! I met a guy and fell in love. On the 28 of Febuary I began my first relationship. After six months, I was getting mentally abused and had lost the ability to love myself. I loved this guy very much that it was hard to escape from all this pain! Suicide thought came to me, and I could not find an escape. It changed me drastically! -
A new little bundle of joy
A new sister has arrived! My motivation to life. On my weakest days, where I had suicide thoughts, I had found out that my mother was having a little girl. I realized that I had to be a great example to her! This is where I realized that life is much more important. Up to date, I am blessed to have a little goodmorning kiss, or slap by a little precious princess. She is the only reason why I wake up every morning with a smile. -
Fake friendships
On the year of 2013 I began searching for friendships. I had gotten one bestfriend I would not replace! After a few months passed, and I got betrayed. Months kept going and I kept meeting more people who had also betrayed me and, up to date they still turn new people against me. It is devastating! I have lost the ability to trust, and have felt lonely. I know that god is with me. -
My joy arrived
On July 16, 2013 I found a bestfriend! He was my shoulder to cry on, my advisor, and he would understand me just well. I met him right after I realize I had to leave the guy who had broken me apart. He did not judge me, he sat and heard me cry nights in a row and would always find thing to help me sleep so calmly. Months passed, and he still put up with the damage that my ex had put in me at an age very young! We are now 2 years and 6 months and I would not trade him for anything. -
Independence
At the age of 15 I started to realize that I had to start planning life on my own before it is too late. I started working, I starting choosing on my own, and I also realized that every action has a consequence. -
Parents are my heroes
After I had passed thru depression, and wouldn't eat or come out of my room, my parents finally seeked to see what was wrong with me. I realized that although I had been betrayed, they were my only true friends that I could trust. I would shake of fear because my pain was not so easy to speak. I had also lost communication with my father after he found out I had a boyfriend. I talked to my mother about it and it all turned peaeful. I had recieved help! They will always be my heros! -
I love my brother!
My brother is my everything! This last year, I had wanted to die once again. I realized that I wanted motivation, I needed motivation but I had no motivation to seek for it. That night, my brother had adviced me that I should not thing so wrongfully of myself, that as long as I had god with me, nobody else should matter. He brought motivation to me. I could never replace him! -
Success
My life has finally came together! I am very motivated to graduate from highschool, and college. I am ready for marriage to come and, be a mother! I will never stop chasing my dream of being a mom. -
Learned to value myself
I finally learned to value myself! I can now stand up for myself and I will let nothing break me. Life is too short to sit and cry.
